He said,
there were no sparks.
Our moment lacked the expected fireworks and
anticipated galactic bursts of internal supernovas.
Or so you say.
My lips were limp, so only your side of the story remained
Out of fear I figured we shouldn't dwell on it
And to proceed
We agreed:
It was late, we were horny, and it didn’t mean--
anything
But what if…
I always do this
crave feelings, and then just….
Honestly,
I’m glad you tried it
You gave it a shot
slinging for something
you thought was your giant
I should have known
the signs were there
one hug too many
one second too long
eyes locking, I still find it shocking
that you said you admired me
Ironically,
I admire you
Of all the people you encounter
I’m glad that I can
read beyond your cover letter
and biographical elevator pitch
So Let’s stay together
but as friends
A dynamic that demands dedication all the same
Why was your first reaction to blame?
Yourself
How could you ever be ashamed of attempting to be honest?
I promise
to never lie.
unless you consider holding onto the truth dishonesty
I didn’t ever want you to feel uncomfortable
So reluctantly I went along
I was wrong
our song
I guess
was never meant to be a duet
We are parts of an orchestra
you would think the balance of our friendship
can withstand an unstable kiss
Maybe some things just aren’t worth the risk,
but isn't that what life consists of?
I’ve tried
a variety of strategies
all failing me
maybe I’m too damn picky
because this overly sticky situation
got me stationed
uncomfortably in the friend zone.
Where sugar ain't sweet
and honey tastes bitter
Listen
I’ve reconsidered
Is it petty of me to ask for a second chance
I catch myself stealing a glance and
double takes on our group dates
How could I possibly resist a black man in a suit
Let alone one who knows their roots
and values a woman who waters them
you smooth criminal you,
stealing kisses
don’t worry, I won’t turn you in
so please don’t create distance
You seem to have gotten...lost
But remember, I’m just a knock away
I’ll bust down doors
bring you up to my level
like we lived on the same floor
We can gaze together,
sit back and be amazed together as we rise even higher
So maybe there were no sparks...
but fireworks are over rated anyways.
They are only loud bursts that distract from our appreciation of the simplest moments
Swirling smoke clouds can easily blur
what may be standing right in front of you.